I am beginning to find there is an inverse correlation between the age of your child and your hope for their success in this world. No, don’t get me wrong, I have immense hope and belief in my child. But as I stand back and watch and listen as three years have passed since I wrote this piece, I realize the complicated nature of being his mother. The balance of that firm belief and the amount of time, energy and consistency only a mother will do. The balance of dignity, both his and mine in order to help a world see him as I do. And that balance of watching the world place barriers and shame when it doesn’t have to all in the name of ego and it being just a little too much for a mother stand front row witness to over and over and over again. I wish it were different-I am trying and so is he, but for different reasons. Y is for Youth.
(originally published April 2015)
The sticky wicket of Autism. There are some moments I feel particularly lucky for autism. Those moments I watch slip away from my friends who’s babes with bountiful curls framing cherub faces ask for the straightening iron ……who have their gossamer wings clipped to keep their feet firmly planted on the ground….who no longer rub the wonder of dreams deeper into their eyes when they are sleepy. I would imagine it’s the bittersweet joy of having children, watching the transformation from innocent angels to inhabitants of earth. I get to cavort with an angel for longer. I still get to hear a gasp followed by “look mommy…moon!” I still get warm snuggly visits at 3AM. Bubbles are still magical. Raffi is still the only fully grown man who can sing wheels on the bus and get a rousing sing a long at our breakfast table. A2…
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I sure do understand this. I won’t say more so I am not accused (not by you) of being “without hope”,
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